Blues and Greys

After quite a few beautiful wintery days, of blue skies and sunshine, we are back to the dark and dingy morning, and although it is gone 9am, it still feels too dark out. And so, I feel my mood change too. Its only been over the last few years that I’ve wondered about the effect that the seasons have on a person’s mental wellbeing. I’m aware of Seasonal affective disorder (SAD) and have friends who suffer with this. I’m not trying to claim that I’m a sufferer, I don’t know if I’m honest. I just know that the last few days have made me smile with the beautiful sunrises and sunsets, seeing the stars and being able to enjoy a walk in the sunshine. And then today that has changed. I feel like my mood has plummeted somewhat, and that I’m feeling a little down, grumpy for no apparent reason. To be honest, I know that I like the sunny and warm days of the spring and summer, the chance to be outside and feeling the warmth on my face. I do feel that they are more my time of year. But on the other hand, I also like the bright and crispy winter days, and the colours of autumn. There is something to be grateful for in each season. But I do struggle with the dark and grey. Like waking up at what feels like the middle of the night, and then also to be driving home at 5pm, in the dark, missing the best of the day whilst being stuck at a desk. And I won’t pretend I know what the answer is, to build ourselves back up again. I can only just do what I need to do, to get through the day. Hoping that tomorrow will be brighter, in more ways than one. And that spring is on its way….