A Different Kind of Normal

Its amazing how quickly you can get used to doing things a different way, and that it the becomes almost normal, and that I’m okay with that. Change can be difficult, and I know that most of us are struggling right now, with a life as we knew it currently on pause. But as we adapt to this different way of doing things, its almost easy to forget how we’ve ended up in this position. And despite the circumstances, there are definitely positives to my new normality. I’ve always said that I didn’t want to work from home, that I like to separate work and personal life. And I still think that, to a point, but its also not as bad as I thought it would be and I can certainly see the upsides. More sleep and no stressful long commute are helping with my wellbeing, as well as the chance to get out for a good walk each day, and lucky to have more nature surrounding us here. And for the first time in a long time, I actually have money still in my account, as I’m not spending anything and that’s definitely something I want to continue going forwards. It’s just made me realise how much I don’t need, and not just in terms of buying things. Having a smaller workspace and the fact I didn’t bring much home from the office, means I’ve become used to less, and the need for less, I’m just much more aware of it.  I would say I’ve had a good couple of weeks (since my last post) and for that I’m grateful. Despite my moans about my current job, things are busy and therefore I’m keeping occupied most of the time, and therefore enjoying my own time more, working on projects and getting out for walks.  I’ll still have my off days, I wouldn’t expect not to, but I’m glad to say that at this current moment, they seem to be slightly less. Who knows how things will play out as the lock down lifts, but I do think that things won’t go back to exactly how they were, as we prove just what we can do, from home. Obviously there are things that I miss, and look forward to doing again, but I won’t be taking these for granted anymore, and will be looking at how I can do things in better way, hanging on to what I’ve learnt over the last few weeks, both about myself and just what I can do, So whilst the circumstances have been unprecedented, and extremely sad in terms of the high numbers of deaths across the country, I hope that we can all come out of this feeling different, and being different, however much of a cliché that may be. I know I will.

Life, paused

Behind closed doors

At home all the time

Attempting to work

Nothing to look forward to

Uncertain times

Missing people

Finding other ways

To stay hopeful

To carry on as normal

Through social media

Keeping in touch

Turning can’ts into cans

Getting outside more

We can get through this

The storm will pass

But in reality

For now

Life is paused.