Rejection or a blessing in disguise?

I’m aware that a few of my posts so far have dwelled on work, and how unhappy I am. But it’s a huge part of our lives, for most of us. Some are happy to do anything, whatever pays the bills, to be able to live the life that they want. I am not one of those. For me, being happy in what I do is important, for my wellbeing as much as anything else. And that’s why I feel I’m really struggling at the moment. And its not for want of trying, to move on, to create a better place for myself. And yet I can’t quite seem to get there, always second best. It’s a hard place to be, especially when you feel you lack motivation and direction. And for me, my mental wellbeing takes a further dip as I feel that I’m not good enough and wonder just what I’m doing wrong. But today, as I suffer yet another rejection, for a job that I was actually excited about, I’m trying to think a little differently. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t disappointed, I am. But, forgive me for this, maybe it’s a sign. That the time has come to make that leap that I keep talking about, to stop talking and really start doing. It’s made me think hard about where I am and where I’d like to be. And I’m not going to get there if I just sit on my laurels. I need to start making the steps to make those ideas more of a reality, gain the experience and maybe qualifications I need to put me in a better place to be able to do that dream job. At a time of uncertainty in my workplace, maybe this has come at just the right time as its making me consider all the options, and what is right for me. Rejection is tough, I’m not going to lie, but the more its happened recently, the more I’m learning, about myself. I need to get tougher and know that just sometimes, a path isn’t the right one for me and I need to continue looking for the one that is. I will let myself be sad, to grieve what didn’t happen for just a minute, but then I will move on. Better things ARE waiting for me.

‘You can’t go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending’ C S Lewis

‘Sometimes in the winds of change we find our greatest direction’