Finding my worth

It dawned on me today that I need to find the time to realise my own worth. I’ve been trying to find a new me, but realise now that the old me is still here, battered and bruised, and that there is nothing wrong with who I am.  But I do need to find something I feel is worth fighting for, that I have a purpose and the only person keeping the shackles on is me.  So now is the time to follow that uncertain, unknown path to find what is important to me.  Today I suffered another rejection for the sector I’ve worked hard in for the last 8 years. It doesn’t do a lot for your confidence, as I know I’ve said before.  But I’m trying to find the positives from the negative, and attempting to find my worth elsewhere. It may be unknown, but if the current situation has taught me anything, its to make sure that I’m happy, and what is important. And to not be scared. I’ve talked for so long about doing something else, but end up usually sticking to what I know, as I’m sure most of us do. But what I forget is the skills and knowledge that I’ve gained can be transferred into another sector and I need to try and at least make that leap. If not now, when? And I need to start somewhere.

Halfway

I don’t like this place

Where I belong neither here nor there

Trapped, stuck, motionless

Does anyone even care

I’ve travelled so far already

But still so far away

From where I need to be

Here is not where I want to stay

At a point in my life

Where I cannot decide

Which path to follow

To walk along, to slide

Not wanting to go back

To who I used to be

But continue moving

Towards a different me

Stuck at this halfway point

Lacking the courage I very much need

To get me past and onwards

To find that dream, to succeed.