You Got This

 

There comes a time when you just have to work on your own self-care, in order to just get through the day. Giving myself a break when I get wound up, not beating myself up constantly and taking time out to do what I enjoy, even just for an hour. Sometimes it helps, sometimes not, but I’m trying. I’m still struggling to see the point of what I do day in, day out and feel its relevance. I get angry about the smallest of things and then wonder why. It just feels like nothing.

 

But after a little wake up call, I’m working on trying to see things differently and just getting on with it. It’s not about comparing myself to others, but seeing what I do for what it is and attempting to not let it get to me. I can’t look for other things unless my head is in the right place. I’m seeking that satisfaction that doesn’t exist for most of us. So maybe I could find it in other ways. Trying to see a different angle to what I already have, but not let it define who I want to be. Focus on what’s more important.

 

It’s not about the current situation and feeling lucky, I felt like this before and I will again, but I can only move on if I change my mind-set and put myself in a better place. If not today then another day, but I will.  Giving myself a break, it’s okay to just get through the day without a list of achievements. We can’t all be life savers, some of us just aren’t made to do that, but we can all find our own way of trying to do what we can to help others. That’s what my volunteering is, even if I can’t do that at the moment. But I can use my social media to share things that are important to me, help raise awareness. It all helps, even in a little way. 

 

Yes I feel like this today, and tomorrow I could and probably will, if not then, in a few days, go back to how I normally feel. It’s just how I’m wired I guess. But I can at least accept what I can and can’t do, the type of person I am, and not try and chase an impossible dream (for me). If the one achievement was that I got through the day, then that’s enough, especially when I’m struggling. But I've got this.